OMG.. What have we done?

A couple of months ago.. Id say around six or so, My BF and I bought a very expensive puppy for my BFs parents because thiers had recently died. There was some discrepancy on whether or not they had wanted the dog because it was very active and they were loking for a different breed. I had put up something asking anyone if they wanted to buy it because I couldnt bear the thought of giving it to the ASPCA or something of that nature because it was such a cute dog. After much discussion they decided to keep the dog. Whos BTW, name was Sandy. The dog had a condition called 'cherry eyes' and it wasnt harmful to the dog, however, it just was a sore sight to look at. Her eyes werent even that bad in comparison to other case Id seen on the internet.

Being used to something looking a certain way we let our vanity get the best of us. We paid 1000 for a rather sketchy surgery that even the doctor told us he had only done 2 of in his lifetime and one was unsuccessful. The surgery was to remove the "cherry" part of the eye which is really a nice way to say big tear duct. The puppy went through surgery and looked as though she was recovering properly.

A few weeks later one of the eyes started to smell. The puppy kept her eye closed at all times and became less active.

We took her back to the doctor

The doctor told us there was an infection due to surgery and we had to do one more surgery to fix it. Again, we exposed the puppy to this for our own satisfaction. And now for hers too, to try to 'make right' what should have never been messed with in the first place. A month passed after that surgery and to no avail the eye got worse and worse.

Back to the doctor we went

He prescribed many medications and the dog seemed to be doing better but he said we needed one more surgery to truly fix it all. Again. We agreed. Her surgery was supposed to be this coming Tuesday.

From what I understand, she experienced a high fever and stopped eating. Her food would have to be fed to her and she became less and less active. Back to the doctor she went.

But this time she didnt come back.

The doctor stated that because of the previous surgeries, she had lost her eyesight completely. So her first surgery was entirely unsuccessful. She was blind. The only way to fix it was a very expensive cornea surgery (10-15k) in which due to her current condition, there was no guarantee she would survive. So he suggested Sandy be put to rest.

I wish I could turn back the hands of time and change our sick and twisted minds the first time we thought it was OK to perform 'cosmetic surgery' on a fucking dog. I am deeply saddened and sickened with myself that I let it go on for so long. May you rest in peace Sandy. And I strongly suggest to anyone else contemplating doing something completely retarded to thier pet like we did.. not to.

I shall dress in black for months to come in mourning.